Are you aware of the Imaginal Cells & The Caterpillar’s Job to Resist the Butterfly "inside"? Take this...
A caterpillar crunches its way through its ecosystem, cutting a swath of destruction by eating as much as hundreds of times its weight in a day, until it is too bloated to continue and hangs itself up, its skin then hardening into a chrysalis.
Inside this chrysalis, deep in the caterpillar’s body, tiny things biologists call ‘imaginal disks’ begin to form. Not recognizing the newcomers, the caterpillar’s immune system snuffs them as they arise. But they keep coming faster and faster, then linking up with each other.
Eventually the caterpillar’s immune system fails from the stress and the disks become imaginal cells that build the butterfly by feeding on the soupy meltdown of the caterpillar’s body.
It took a long time for biologists to understand the reason for the immune system attack on the incipient butterfly cells, but eventually they discovered that the butterfly has its own unique genome, carried by the caterpillar, inherited from long ago in evolution, yet not part of it as such (Margulis & Sagan, Acquiring Genomes 2002).
Thats the inevitable Transformation my friend! And Pain is when you resist it.
Don't you think the caterpillar feels PAIN in the process? Yes indeed, but eventually, you see, its ALL about you evolving into a better "You".
Everything thats happening, is happening for the sake of 'Balance'.
Believe me, the first thing you need to practice, is to consciously BREATH, feel yourself, the air moving in, feel your fingers, limbs. Realize yourself in the Present, because this where changes happen, this is where "YOU" exist, on this tiny "blue dot", called Earth, that glows with LIFE in this endless, dark emptiness. The only one place that matters, is this moment, and you ought to be here, and in fact, you ARE here.
So just Breath-in the Moment...Breath-out the Past, and your Future will be free of bondage.
And note that Agyaan, is NOT being "without consciousness", rather its about being Without Awareness.