I took a shiva diksha today at my local temple. I have been a non-vegetarian all of my life. Today the priest at the local temple who initiated me told me that I had to give up eating meat. I agreed and then he gave me a basic shiva diksha and mantra to chant. I now find it difficult to give up eating meat, like chicken and goat. If I eat non-veg after taking this diksha, will I be punished by the gods? I am a very religious person, but I am bengali so my cultural food is very non-veg. Is there any way I can reverse the diksha and go back to the way I originally was without any negative consequences? I want to be a tantrik and follow kashmiri shaivism, but I want to be non-veg. Is this possible? Ravan was a shiva devotee but he ate meat. Why can't I worship shiva and eat meat at the same time? Please help. I would appreciate it if a qualified religious priest pandit expert answered it.
I am not a qualified priest but, I know this would help you.
You can reverse or, in other words, stop deeksha by two ways as mentioned in the Meru Tantra.
1.By telling the mantra to a cow.
- By writing the the mantra on a bhurja-patra or a manu script and leaving it in a river which flows all over the year.
But be sure to leave the mantra deeksha, which cant be obtained easily. I was waiting for the guru from several years and cant find one. You are lucky to have a guru.
Don't forget to consult the guru before leaving mantra.Only after his permission you can leave the mantra.It is said that other wise you will face the negativity (my point is not to make you you afraid but telling the things which i was been told).
Source - I have a heard a Pravachana of a Guru where he told about the methods I gave here.